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Real Love

I know that it’s been a while. I miss you. Never doubt, that the love I have for you is true. No, I am not writing this letter to you so that we can be close like we used to. Maybe, those days, are through. Now I just want to check-in with you, so that you can always know that my heart has not grown cold when it comes to you. I will always be able to look back and remember the best version of us, when we were just two-ones in a crew. Yes, we were always flawed but boy did our hearts feel new.

I know We Drifted

Now we have both been trampled on in the world and drawn apart from the big family vibes that were once an everyday experience. Although, this is true, no matter if parts of you fell as you regrouped, — know that I still see you, as you. As new. Even at times when you don’t hear from me, I don’t want you to feel alone in this world. Sometimes I don’t want to talk on the phone because the words start to get tangled –between us. Sometimes trying to remind ourselves that we were two-ones. Bold in our pursuits. With the smiles of a true bond.

The Love Is Never Truely Lost

We can never re-do such a powerful love. So sometimes, we get tangled, trying to. Just because we can’t rekindle old school family cookouts, doesn’t make our memories un-true. Let’s be honest, some of the glue has returned to the earth but the foundation of love always returns to us, like dew. That foundation, and I know you know what I am talking about, is what made us capable of being two-ones, maybe flawed, but together. Also having butterflies in our bellies, the kind when you are on top of a mountain looking down at the beauty in the earth.

Genuine Is So Hard To Find

Why ruin the grasp the beauty of natural growing fruit and greenery has in a heart by embellishing all of its hardships. Organic has flaws. When it is organic some of the fruit are not edible, but it makes all the better for the other fruit growing from that same tree, that same soul. There is no better feeling than friendship, family, and love — that remembers, to love. There is no worse feeling than our flaws coming in between us. We should carry our spiritual flaws, never letting our flaws walk ahead and never ever think to cradle us in its arms, like its baby. We are parents of self, first.

From One Soul To Another

Like a field of organically grown flowers, the beauty in our soul will speak on our behalf. I am sorry if I hurt you. Regardless of whether it was me or you that was at fault. Sometimes it was both of us. Though, the pain is all the same. I don’t want us to live in that hurt. There is so much beauty being overlooked –inside of you, inside of me. I just always want you to know, I will always hold the memory of when we were a group of two-ones near to my heart. I remember, your art. I remember — our art.

June 5, 2026
Filling Holes In Vacant Lots

Eventually it always goes back to wanting to achieve in areas of your life that were too complicated in the past, I call it, “filling holes in vacant lots.” It is the constant digging of the hole we are so desperately trying to fill. It is one thing to know there is a level of greatness within you that is undiluted in its value but another thing to feel like the building of your temple is complete. Is it really ever complete? Is the home that lives and thrives inside of you ever designed so perfectly that no additions are yearned for?

Something More

For me there will always be something that makes me want to write my name on it. Something uninhabited that can be built from the ground up giving a feeling of filling holes in vacant lots. It is just the feeling of overcoming. So, I can never stop digging holes or should I say tunnels that fuel me. I like to make sure that the holes I dig are filled with the spirit of an overcomer.

I remember when that ground was bare. Now it has beautiful fruit trees and waterfalls. Now there are ballrooms and laughter. Now it is an ocean in which I surf the waters like a pro. Though there is always more to do, now isn’t there? It is about the feeling for me. Not the power, but it is such a powerful feeling you feel when working to overcome your own doubts and wants.

Complete Fragment

I understand that I am such a fragmented person although I am never truly broken. In the fragments I see possibilities of something beautiful. Once I see it, I want it. Discovery of “who I can be, for me” is what I am really digging and filling for. I try my best never to leave an empty hole. I know that something belongs there. A purpose.

It is funny because my heart refuses to write a complete sentence. Is the longing of the heart ever really complete? The answer is never complete because of the missing piece. Isn’t there always a missing piece at least more times than not? Which is why there will always be a vacant lot that needs filling. With so many empty lots there is never a reason to write my name on a hole that has already been dug and filled with another’s inspirations which inspired me to want to achieve. I can only and would only want to be an addition to a masterpiece.

Through The Mist Is Greatness

Believing that any concept is simply black or white is one of the biggest fabrications imagined. Believing that gray or grey can’t be defined is also a fabrication. Grey and Gray wishes to tell the whole story, whilst black and white wishes to convict, primarily convict the innocent. Why else would you accuse someone of stepping on your shoe and leave out the part of you forcing them to hop on one leg.

Achieving Overcoming

I think, what does this have to do with achieving, digging and filling yourself with the spirit of being an overcomer? Everything. No achievement comes without you fighting and grinding for it. The spirit of fear, anger, unbelief, jealousy will never welcome the spirit of overcoming. Overcoming is an independent journey within that can be journeyed together but cannot be carried. Overcoming produces and reproduces hope.

The panic and appreciation of hopes habitation is my validation and there is just something so powerful about a silent standing ovation. It means that everyone knows that you are more than just another rotation. You are more than your situation. There is no reason to be loud when you are the vibrant vibration.

May 7, 2026
Pinpoints

“Pinpoints are important to create clear directions”, is what Jada’s grandpa would tell her and her younger sister ‘Gail’. It is only the three of them since their father passed away 5 years ago. While their mother passed away during the childbirth of Gail. With the greatest of efforts, Grandpa Earl has tried to raise Jada and Gail into respectable women. Whilst teaching them the value of family.

Once every year Grandpa Earl would tell the girls to choose a place in the world in which they would like to visit. On even years Gail would choose, and odd years are Jada’s choice. Gail had many things she wanted to do each time it was her choice. Therefore, Grandpa Earl made an exception for her. The terms were as long as everything she wanted to do could be done during his two-week vacation from work he could make adjustments for Gail. “Boy did he not understand the level of his commitment.”

What’s Important

Gail would make all the places she wanted to go within driving distance of our home so that she could do more things. In her mind more places equaled more value to her experience. Although they would visit so many places during Gail’s choices it eventually started to feel stagnant. It seemed that everything on the map was Gail’s priority so it started to feel like nothing at all.

She chose all of the pinpoints in driving distance as her chance to see the world. Which made it impossible for her to truly see which places would mean something to her. Seeing everything sometimes means to see nothing. While seeing what’s important becomes everything. With Jada being quite the opposite. Her choice would usually be one small dot Countries away.

While in travel to the place that is just a small dot but so far away, they would pass by all of the places Gail would usually choose over and over again before reaching Jada’s destination. Although they passed all of these places, they never stopped or else they would never make it to the place Jada truly wanted to go. In Jada’s mind, stopping at every pinpoint makes one lose track of the destination of a heart’s desire.

If she has to stop to use the restroom or eat, she does. She is not illogical to survival is 24/7 in the land of the living. Though she never books a hotel until she has arrived at her destination.

November 25, 2025
At Times Miscommunication

As citizens of the United States something tells me that we are on the right path. We are learning to look past small differences about one another and seeing the bigger picture. We are actually trying. It is a journey I understand all too well, especially when there is so much deep history, some good but more bad. Although the good has always outweighed the bad.

Personally, I grew up hearing and seeing so many things that I had to learn to look at every situation with a fresh set of eyes. I understand the saying ‘All Lives Matter’ and I also understand how and why it angered some African Americans. Me being one of them. It is not the saying of ‘All Lives Matter’ that was the problem. The problem was it was used to counter ‘Black Lives Matter’. That is the reason why every situation has to be looked at in full.

While the constitution is written in black and white, when it comes to the matter of respecting one another the answer is and could never be black and white. It is on us to genuinely treat people with respect. I know that some people will take this and try to use it to attack freedom of speech.

Most of you know me by now, and know that respecting each other does not mean walking on eggshells. If you are genuinely having a hard conversation with someone and your heart is truly in the right place, we can’t control someone taking words to respect one another and try to use it to silence people. Where there is good there is always bad.

Trying To Understand All Pain

Now if you don’t look at the full situation it could cause more anger on top of bad situations. I could also understand how a person can just see ‘All Lives Matter’ and think my life matters too. I will tell you today with all of my heart your life matters. One person I always think of is the poet (Doreen O’Neill) because she says ‘does my pain not matter?’ in such a way that it makes you consider the tears of every man, woman, and child.

It is just that ‘Black Lives Matter’ was created because of so many black lives being taken at disproportionate numbers from those who promised to serve and protect. Many times, our issues are simple miscommunications. At least for most of us. For instance, I can also see how ‘All Lives Matter’ could have been created because maybe a person of another race has a family member who lost their life in the same manner.

The other reason, which was the reason I assumed, was it was a counter against ‘Black lives Matter’. Although, for the person with good intentions saying ‘All Lives Matter’ was not a counter, but a way to include the people that they know which also lost their life in a like manner. Like I said, miscommunication. Them not understanding that so many more black lives were being taken than others. That is the only reason why the calling for ‘Black Lives Matter’ was specific.

Y’all Got That Good Energy

The injustice against African American people became overwhelming. ‘Black Lives Matter’ was really a way to remind America that our lives matter ‘too’. All of us black, white, etc. just have to use our actions in a genuine manner, and it will come through as such. At least most times. Shout out to African Americans because we are on the path to loving and respecting each other. Our eyes are starting to see what the real game is. In fact, the energy is different with ‘almost’ every American I have encountered recently. The energy is good. So, shout out to all y’all.

Don’t allow those with the wrong motives to put all of that hate back into our hearts. Can’t we all just get along? Lol. We can have so much more success as individuals and as a whole if we all just keep our eyes on respecting each other and considering each person’s civil rights.

I kind of feel like I want to say I love y’all. I know weird right. Lol. Most of us understand that at the end of the day it is on us to protect the constitution. I don’t have the perfect view of every situation. So, I apologize if I missed something. I want all y’all as American people and people all over the world to be happy today. It’s Saturday.

July 26, 2025
This World Is Yours

Allow me to take you on a journey with me. Close your eyes and let your muscles in your face and your breathing do a slow drop. Now with your eyes still closed, allow your mind to clear. If your mind is clearing as it should your head should drift. Once you are there, go into the wonderful world that is created in your head. This world is whatever you want it to be.

Maybe just a feeling. Maybe Peace. You decide. It is a place inside of you that is your safety net. Design it at your will. When I visit my own, it is a blank space. Sometimes the color is black or black pierced with the light around me. When I do this sitting right in front of the computer screen, it is black pierced with white and red lighting. Then the vision of my choice begins.

Walk and Talk With Me

As I am walking down the road in this place It is nighttime with the stars and moon lighting the night in the most beautiful way. Looking to my right I see a body of water similar to a large lake. The water is beautiful with light from the moon glistening over the water. I walk toward the water bare feet. The sand beneath me is perfect and free flowing. My toes press into the sand so easily and the sand releases my toes with the same ease.

The light from the moon glistens all over me. My attire is a loose free flowing all white gown that covers me but is light in every way. Everything is as light as a feather. Finally, I reach the body of water, and I sit down at the edge of it in the sand allowing my feet to ease into the water. The water is clean and perfect. All of the fish and life under the water are asleep. I can look down through the water and see them resting peacefully.

Allow The Water To Heal You

I submerge my bottom half body into the water. With my hands I take water and sprinkle it onto my face. Then I just run my dripping hands over my face. Soaking up the peace that lives in this moment, in this water. I sleep until morning. Once awake I pick berries from the tree hovering over me. The sun peeks through perfectly mixing with the shade. I sit there for a moment receiving the gift of sunlight. It feels like power. It gives me power.

There is a glorious stimulation that I can feel behind my eyes flowing into the back of my brain from the warmth and light of the sun. I start to walk towards the large rocks lining the lake. The one sitting the tallest with the flattest surface is the one I choose to lay upon. The lake turns into an ocean with huge waves. The waves brush water upon me in a very soothing tone. It is as if the ocean has seen me and befriended me.

A Peace Filled Thrill

The water then rises and covers all the land and rocks except for the one I rest upon. I am unable to swim but unafraid. I understand that this is the water’s way of saying I live, breathe and speak. My response is just the feeling of being important and special in this moment. Knowing that the ocean considered me. Cooling me. Allowing me to feel the soothing of sun and water all in one. While resting with all of my muscles fully relaxed. With squinted relaxed eyes I look to the sky. Inside of me I am thanking the Most High and a rainbow appears.

July 23, 2025
Now vs Then

It seems like at some point I became a new person. At age 23 I got into a car accident. Me against a tree. Well, the tree won that fight. Later, at age 26 I needed an uber from the Greyhound station and the driver asked my age, I told him. He responded, “people change at 26”. During that time, I didn’t realize how true that was. I mean as far as living life, I knew how to do that. Due to being an early 90’s baby we lived a full life worth of experiences before reaching adulthood. My first time riding the train alone I was around age 10.

So, I don’t mean change as in taking care of yourself. I mean change as in knowing who you are and what you stand for. It is almost like for me that was the beginning of the mindset I have now. I was so air headed before the car accident that sometimes I honestly wonder is life real post car accident. Not to toot my own horn but I know that in many ways I am kinda intelligent. Not saying I am not still air-headed in some ways. Though I am saying I am intelligent in ways. Which honestly shouldn’t be possible for the level of air-headedness I once held.

Lost In The Sauce

It is like the car accident, or something, connected my mind to my spirit. My mind was floating all by itself before that. Before that time, most things about the people around me I just didn’t notice at all. As far as how they might be feeling or cues that they give off. It was basically a 24/7 vibe of speak now or forever hold your peace. Guessing was not on my agenda. It was kind of a blessing. My mind, although filled with air, was mine and mine alone. Now I have to share it in some ways with my spirit and all of its requirements.

The saying “ignorance is bliss” is true. What you don’t know can hurt you, but you don’t feel it the same as when you know. Literally some terrible things would happen to me back in the day and I would just be going along with life not realizing how bad things were. For example, head busted wide open and I’m just like where to next. You would think I was on drugs due to the level of being unaffected by real life hardships.

When Exactly Did I Become Me

Although, at age 21 I moved to Texas because I wanted to change my life and develop my relationship with the Most High. So, I guess deep down it was there, but it was in an area of my heart that was rarely reachable at that time. Though, certain things I have never liked. Even as a child I wanted to see the downtrodden win. It has always been kind of hard for me in arguments because you could say the worst thing to me and I would know how to hit you where it hurts. However, I never could bring myself to cutting deep. I still can’t.

At the magical age of 26 I finally started to see the world and myself in the mirror. Or maybe it was 25, not sure. Though the uber ride was at 26 I was already changing in ways a little time before. Now the question I am left with is what triggers your spirit to wake you up. I mean of course I know the Most High, but what makes him decide it is time. There was a time when large portions of the population didn’t know how much planning went into keeping people under an illusion. Though the times are similar today where we know so much and nothing at the same time.

Hate Is Not The Way

I believe we are going into more hateful times in the world. People are being told to be hateful when hate is like a burning fire. It is never a good route for any of us to take. Hate consumes. Hate also must feed. Directions to hate others is one of the worst services that has been done to the minds and most of all the spirits of the people. I know what it feels like to hate someone. Whether it’s from hurt or whatever reason. During that time in my life the hate consumed me. I was set on revenge.

I tell the story a lot of the ex who probably named me Chucky. Let me just add I was heartbroken and too young to think I was in love. It is the common story of the younger chick the older chick and income tax checks. That was the day when he was suddenly in a whole committed relationship with the girl who I thought was the wife of his friend. I was even hanging out over there on a regular basis. It was too much hurt on my young heart. The husband also got kicked to the curb. So, I wasn’t the only one blind sighted.

Don’t take this literal, but I was declared mentally insane for a short period afterwards. Although in some ways it was a joke to him. By me hating him he was in control of my day-to-day emotions. Not that he wanted to be. After escaping the hate, I realized how much I hurt myself during that time. Now back to today’s me. I am different. Which seems so unbelievable to me considering where I came from.

I Know There Is More

I can’t help but think about the spiritual realm. Although I have never seen a spirit before. There is something about a dream that lets you know that we are spiritual beings. It is like a doorway to the magic inside of us. We literally have whole movies play out in full HD while we are sleeping.

Our dreams were the first tv screens. It is a connection to a place further than our physical body. Even though most dreams are based on things in our life it is still like going into a place that belongs to the spirit. I wonder about everything since my spirit and mind became one with common goals. Most of all, I wonder if any of it is real.

July 21, 2025
Letter To Myself

Today is July 16, 2025. This is a letter to Wyshandra Glaze from Wyshandra Glaze. Where do I even start when talking to you. I see you as an amazing person. Although I wonder sometimes if the world we live in is real. There is so much hate in this world and so many excuses for hate. Me and you both know this has always been the case since human existence. I just want to tell you that you have permission to pick yourself up.

You are such a caring person sometimes that you forget that if your moments of laughter and joy make someone sad, there is nothing you can do about it. You are a thoughtful person so if anybody decides to hate you that would be the case no matter what you do or don’t do. It is time to accept that yes you were given great talent in writing but never allow anyone to make the things that are forced on you into your responsibility to carry.

Permission To Cope

If you never discovered your talents these many terrible things were already happening to you years before you wrote a single word. No one saw you coming. Not even you. Probably even saw it as some type of joke. Some still claim it’s a joke but me and you know what’s up. Through all of this you never changed, and you fight every day to give yourself permission to heal. So what if people claim that you are acting like a victim. Not a single person has ever saved you from anything. All of your life you picked you up.

If taking care of your mental health bothers someone, maybe they should start doing the same. Keep screaming how you feel. It is good for you. At least, you are not a bully. The things on your mind are conversations about stopping hate in the world. All of them. Even the painful ones when a day’s worth of hate in the cards you were dealt with is overwhelming. Even when you snap, the message is the same. Stop the hate. Therefore, if asking to stop the hate is the problem in this world then I can, you can, accept that we will never fit in here.

Joy From Joy

You are, I am, fine with living a life with my morals intact. Although I am not the moral guide I try to do my part in doing right by the next person. I am only a person who can admit that something is terribly wrong. With that I will continue to comfort myself. I will continue to sing the songs I love. It is not your fault if someone who is not even in your thought process finds a way to make your every action about them. You know that you are way past certain things. So when you laugh you know that it is about your joy that you feel inside.

When you sing Mary J Blige or Monica you know that those songs do something to your soul that is healing and has nothing to do with anybody else. My joy does not come from hate or hating. Moreover, cry whenever you want to. Your time to be sad is for you. If someone uses your hurt as their pain reliever, it is not on you to stop crying. It is on them to find a real source of comfort that also allows them to cope with their own issues. Also, if you need to turn your back on the world that turned its back on you long ago, at least you are not participating in hurting others.

A Time To Only Focus On My Mirror

It is okay to say this season I will focus on me. This time I don’t have any input about the latest world tragedy. Talking about it is not a crown to say you are such a great person. There is nothing I can do right now. I am barely able to support me. You know that if you had the means to actually help people you would. Can the criticizers say the same? Or do they just like to talk about it and claim they are good people. Someone should definitely talk about it and trust me there will never be a shortage in world tragedies receiving news coverage.

Therefore, who does a person think they are to be mad at you because you don’t want to know about how many people passed away today. Maybe that is too much bad news for you to handle right now and that is okay. So, I don’t have to know about what is happening in the world when I have no ability to help right now. Also, it is like people want you to ignore the fact that a lot of hate you received came from all races of people including people who look like you, even family.

Once This Happened

People that I haven’t talked to in so long popped back into my life just to receive a pat on the back for their ability to hurt me. Even a person in prison was recruited. Therefore, I don’t need any more evidence to know that I am on the right side of things. Now Wyshandra it was nice talking to you but a message for the people who also want to see less hate in the world. Keep smiling. Don’t ever feel like you have to walk around frowning to protect someone else’s feelings. Let that laugh you feel inside spill over. Your joy comes from joy, not hate. It is so different.

Give Yourself Permission

Anybody can get there but the first step for everyone is to give yourself permission. Permission to be happy for people. Permission to own your own happiness. You just have to keep telling yourself the truth. If you struggle with taking on other people’s negative emotions then remember to remind yourself of the real reason you were smiling to begin with. Remember to remind yourself that you are happy because that is what you feel in the moment. You cannot control if someone takes your smile or your wins in life as if you are somehow thinking in a negative narrative about them.

If you struggle with the opposite such as, feeling offended because someone you are at odds with or just someone in general is having a good day. Give yourself permission to be happy that something good happened for someone else. Remember that their happiness takes nothing from yours. If you allow the good in another person’s life to hurt you, you will miss out on truly enjoying all of your own amazing moments. I know you have many and if not start today. Go and make your great moments about you. You have permission to smile too.

July 16, 2025
Langston Hughes

Today I read poems from Langston Hughes. He seemed like a man who thought a lot. His every journey from a night on the town to his woman of interest, he wrote into a poem. Even his trials of being African American and the struggles he endured. I like reading and hearing from writers and artists from the past because they didn’t hide their feelings. Langston Hughes wrote real vulnerabilities in his poetry. Things that real life people suffer with every day. They remind me that tears are not taboo. Reading his poetry brings me back to reality.

Many trials have been overcome, and many trials have been lost. I am always rooting for the downtrodden and wanting something good to finally come into their life. It seems that at one point Langston was downtrodden. Now today he is Langston Hughes. I bet he never thought there would be a day when his name alone is the Trophy. He traveled a lot, seeing the world from many different angles. He saw the people that were unseen in society, and he wrote from a distant point of view but like it was the person’s own feelings. He wrote about the rich in society the same.

The Eyes of A Deep Soul

After reading some of his poetry I look at the cover of his book and in his eyes I see a man with a deep soul. He looks real in the eyes. You can see pain but not in a bad way. He seems like he knows that life comes with pain. You see strength. Like a man who will never give up. There is also a mystery that drives his curiosity of the world and people. Langston Hughes also seems to be a realist in a way. Not to driven in fantasies.

This is all just me trying to understand this great poet. With that, I am not an expert or even trained in understanding the human mind. Pushing myself to understand another human from the little they willingly share with me helps me to understand humanity in a unbiased way. If I can understand a person from the little I learn, I can understand the complexities of humanity.

When I look into his eyes, I also see a dark side. A dark side does not always mean evil. In this case I don’t mean evil only a dark side. In addition, he seems like a sensitive man. Being able to feel and connect with all things in his path. There is something about the eyes and a voice of a person that intrigues me. It is so intimate to me in a non-sexual way that I can barely look people in the eyes. It is intense at times. Though it is sometimes easy. Most times it has nothing to do with the other person whether it is easy or not. Langston has special eyes. They tell a story.

June 27, 2025
Who Takes The Blame of Society

How We Judge Deeds

Who Takes The Blame of Society? In this article we will have a non-biased conversation about key figures and how they were perceived by large portions of humanity. There was a time when I thought Martin Luther King set us backwards as African American people. When in fact it is the opposite. What he did for not only people that looked like him, but he brought about change that was better for all kind. He had to fight for justice. So, what makes me or anybody else think that we don’t also have a role to play in the balance of good and evil. One man can’t hold the troubles of society on his back forever.

Why Do We Think Like This

With that Martin didn’t do it alone but he led the cause. It is easier to feel like that one person with good intentions can save the world. Only this is not possible. Which is why I ask Who Takes The Blame of Society? Martin was blamed even long after his death for the continuing downfall of African American communities. While the entire world ignored all of the tactics deployed in making sure that African American people would not thrive as a community. Those tactics are to blame, not Martin or the freedom fighters. We ignore evil and blame the people with good intentions.

My belief in where this started is with the story of Jesus Christ. Now let me say this article is not what religion I subscribe to. Nor to talk negatively about any religion. In fact, I am here to say whether the story is true or not, it made an impact on the way society thinks as a whole. Society seems to believe that a person with good intentions should die or be tortured for the sins of all mankind. The villain goes about causing chaos and then we look to the decent and the good in society and blame them for every evil action being committed.

Blaming The Crucified

Why do we victim blame? It is easier to blame victims in situations. Especially when you know you can’t help them. The easiest way to deal with this in our hearts is to hate them. Now today figures like Martin Luther King and Jesus Christ are loved but we all know that was not the case when they were living. They were tortured and hung on a cross literally and figuratively.

Over and over again large portions of society have joined hand in hand to slay or torture the decent in the earth. When you try to do a good thing, it is never taken for the good it is. Most people see it and seek to find flaws in you. Which they always will, because having good intentions for society does not make you without sin. Which is why I ask society Who Takes The Blame of Society?

Do We Need Perfection To Do Good

Many times, the homeless are feeding the homeless. When a homeless person that also is an addict makes sure that the homeless person near him or her doesn’t miss a meal because they can’t stand knowing that another goes hungry. Does it make their good deed not real because they are an addict?

Or how about when they see a young person at risk of becoming an addict and they tell them no young brother or sister, that is not the way. Does it then make them fake because they stopped another human from taking the destructive path they once took. Or how about when they become clean from drugs can they not help another become clean because of their past? It is like finding fault in every good deed is just a way to stop people from wanting to do good.

Evil Is and Always Will Be The Problem

I used to think that being too nice, caused problems. When in fact being too evil has corrupted everything nice. No person is perfect and even if you were, people will still find fault or even create fault. Place the blame where it stems. Which is those with the power to crucify and torture the good and decent in the earth.

Remember that when George Floyd was murdered, people said it was okay because he was an addict. How long will we allow oppressors to justify their evil with an unjust scale? We stood up as one unit the whole world and agreed that it was wrong. Nonetheless, evil corrupted our good intentions. Saying o but he was an drug addict. So do we murder a man because he is an addict?

We also have developed a mindset that if a person seeks to do good, we are somehow owed a detailed description of their private life. This is a very toxic way of thinking. People come at celebrities all the time and think that it is okay to tear these people apart just because the person has a talent or appeared on tv. Is it their fault for the psychological and at times physical abuse their subjected to simply because they are known for being a great singer, actress, or etc. Or is it the people’s fault who harass and belittle them?

Having a talent does not make you perfect. People have become so entitled that they are willing to strip away your humanity and think it is okay to do so because you’re an idol. The poet by the name of (Doreen O’Neill) said it best when she asked the world “does my pain not matter?” Many people that receive attention for doing something good or for just having a talent can ask the same question.

The weight of evil in this world should not be placed on the shoulders of one or two good intentioned. It is every man, woman and child’s responsibility to bring more good back into the earth. Good intentioned hearts don’t deserve to be crucified to save mankind. It is all of our responsibility to bring good in the world. Most importantly you don’t have to be perfect to do it.

June 25, 2025
Four Walls

What does four walls mean is the question I stumbled across in my mind today. My first thought is a cage, but we all enjoy the comfort of four walls from time to time. Some
would even consider four walls freedom. A space to let down your hair. To undress from a long day. So, one could say four walls is privacy, and protection from judgement.
Moreover, the four walls you dwell in mean something no matter where they are.

We decorate our four walls, painting who we are within them. These walls are more than
privacy, but also a friend that listens to our needs and desires. The color of the wall has to be a color that interacts with inner being as comfort. Neutral is always a good color.
Neutral blues, greens, etc. The reason why I believe neutral is chosen so often is because as people we change so often. Therefore, needing the base of our canvas to
be neutral to change with us.

Remembering Purpose

While our style of painting and artwork may be bold many times. They change and grow with who we become. Even our furniture must fit within our four walls. Nevertheless, even the four walls you choose can become suffocating. Just as thinking too much can become suffocating. Which is why as much as we love our four
walls we love the door built within just as much. You have to step away from the things you love from time to time to appreciate them.

When you first walk into your home is
when you get a full glimpse and feel of the vibe within. If you never leave you can forget or abandon the canvas you are painting. Or sometimes you just need to pour into your decor the things about you that have changed over time. If you could visit your childhood room it would probably be plastered with your favorite childhood superhero. Maybe that is not who you are anymore. Or maybe it is but an upgraded version. Things could lose meaning when you no
longer see the purpose. If there is no meaning your four walls are left unprotected while still having to protect you from the outside world. Your four walls become an army with
no morals. The four walls we live within are not only a warm place to use the heat, but a place to keep our humanity, to inspire us.

Without our humanity we become a preset
check list that does not edit or grow. We need our four walls to be alive to feed our intuition, our hopes, dreams, and love. They don’t live because of how well they’re
decorated they live because you decorated them and gave your mind and heart what was needed to remember them. Some people live in cars, Rv’s, even tents and you can
still feel the inspiration of who they are within. Your four walls are whatever you allow them to be. Your four walls are within you.

June 13, 2025